#idk which pronouns u preferred for this so i kept it vague

[allswell]

@viladlind

❛ I think you should kiss me. No? ❜

He thinks he looks quite dapper for it, all things considered. There's a tree in Cotes and they're both out on a limb and the bard's finally finished the song (was a it a love song? What if he wants it to be?), so the mood was all right.

There are leaves in his hair and a twig in his hands and very little room to move further, unless he forces the bard onto the thinner branches until they snap beneath them.

❛ You have the lips for it, ❜ Cecil reasons. He lifts the twig and tries, happily, to poke it at the other's chest. ❛ Don't I have the face to match? ❜

[bunnymems]

lapis canon call! looking for everyone/anyone! 

this is a kin post, if that bothers u / doesnt apply to u please move on.

tw; self harm/suicide/canon things

im not looking to start romo relationships again, those are just notes on if they did happen! id prefer not to talk too much about romo relationships with people under 18

index;

The war

Lapis (the gems)

Me

Bismuth

Steven

Jasper

Peridot

Garnet

Amethyst

Pearl

Blue Pearl

The War

my job was to record important information that bd needed to keep track of, and i also was a line of communication between the diamonds. especially during the war, when there wasnt always a way to get a hold of a diamond without finding them directly

thats why i could project images; i was The source of information, and that was one way to get the information across. i could also, say, watch a meeting and then later project parts of the meeting that were important

during the war... there wasnt an official thing that said "dont hurt pearls or other uninvolved gems" because the diamonds themselves didnt listen. but for the most part the rebellion focused on active, problematic gems (rubies, jaspers, diamonds ofc) and for the most part nonfighting gems werent involved 

 this, however, was obviously one sided and Not Fair to those on the side of the rebellionthe rebels didnt,, like, even bismuth didnt think shattering nonfighting gems were fair, but there were situations in which it was,, necessary

I ended up cracked because i got too close to a rebel camp during a battle, then i was put in the mirror like in canon. 

Lapis

Lapis.. Lapises.. Lapi.. Lapi were special gems that were almost like Pearls. We were meant to be messengers, and we recorded almost everything we saw at all times.

Regular Lapi were blue with yellow flecks on them. I was a different Lapis, though, specially meant for blue diamond, and i didn’t have the yellow flecks (they were essentially like, bred out?)

Me

Constantly anxious, had flashbacks + dissociative episodes (most flashbacks were emotional instead of visual, so i would have times where i just started freaking out and didn’t always know why)

preferred ‘it’ pronouns (it wasn’t odd for gems to prefer certain pronouns over others, tho we were all still mostly agender beings. it was usually the ones on earth that liked switching pronouns)

Felt bad about not having the yellow flecks other Lapi had.

was SUPER close with steven and the crystal gems--though i wasn’t close with the CGs for a long time (immediately close to Steven though)

CANON DIVERGENCE STARTS HERE:

I did fuse with Jasper, but it was more because i was scared of her than anything

when we fused, though, our shared anger at the CGs made us fight them. we got our ass kicked, though, and were unfused. jasper got away, but i got poofed. Steven convinced the gems to take me home, and he kept me on a pillow on his bed until i healed.

suicide tw; self harm tw;

at some point i attempted to shatter my own gem. im not sure exactly when it happened, but i it was before garnet apologized to me (see Garnet below) i also know steven was the one to find me and talk me into coming home.

after that i had self harming tendencies that i hid from the others. garnet eventually found out and helped me get better, though.

Bismuth

i was terrified of her when i first saw her again; i was in steven’s room hiding on the other side of his bed when he brought her out

she was.. really nice, though. she immediately assumed i was someone she fought, and wanted to put that behind us. i agreed, but was still skittish

because of this, i was there when her and steven went back to the weapons thing. i ended up following them, and i was there for the whole fight with bismuth. i remember me and steven crying as he bubbled her again, and i carried him on my back until we got home. his feet were burned and we were both exhausted.

we brought her back eventually and i love + miss her a lot (possibly romo)

Steven

The ! Best ! Little ! Buddy !

When i told him i was a Special Lapis (a fact i hated) he and connie bought me this like body lotion with glitter in it? i loved it and wore it a lot.

called me and amethyst his sisters for a while (i think sometimes amethyst was Brother, too, but idr for sure)

At some point he told me i was like a mom to him and i ;-; i love him. our relationship was somewhere between parent/sibling

wore dresses and skirts a lot

sometimes he’d get really sad and we’d just sit in silence for a while. when peridot was around we lived in the barn like canon and he’s come over and just nap or something where it was quiet

he got grounded for helping me and when i found that out it made me spiral Bad all over again. the CGs felt bad about it (esp garnet and pearl) but it still hurt.

Jasper

ended up corrupted. steven saved her eventually. i wasn’t entirely against the idea, but he was okay with not bringing her up around me. we tolerated each other eventually, and may have been friends (over the course of like, several years, not the course of the show timeline)

Peridot

Small, but about the same size as steven. she was super clingy and would hug/cuddle/hold hands/etc a lot with me and amethyst. she would also ride on my back a lot if we were walking or flying somewhere

she had problems walking for some reason? i dont remember why but especially on sand she had a hard time

she was.. hit a lot. idk if she ever told me by who, but the way she acted made it obvious.

may have been romo with me and amethyst

Garnet

she actually apologized to me for the mirror thing. they thought that i was mindless/corrupted or a BD follower, which i kind of understood, but they were also kinda mean to me for a while (plus the whole steven being grounded thing..) so she eventually actually apologized for it

she was super affectionate; hugs, kisses, cuddles, etc. romo and platonic!! her and steven snuggled on the couch a lot, her and pearl would openly kiss sometimes, stuff like that

her and pearl had a falling out, but with all of our help pearl ended up getting a lot better and they made up.

Amethyst

i dont remember a lost specifically about her besides the things that overlap with peridot. i do remember sometimes she would shout or move too quickly and me and peri would both be uncomfortable, but she caught on pretty fast.

Pearl

definitely romo for pearl like, Way after things happened

she dated mystery girl for a while, but it wasnt really good for her. when they broke up her mental health got a lot better.

we had a loooong talk some time after garnet apologized to me. me and pearl previously would fight and bicker and say things we didn’t really mean, and after the talk we got a lot better about it.

Blue Pearl

I vaguely remember being friends with Blue before i was put in the mirror. She was shy and quiet, but also kind of snarky a lot (had to be, to put up with Yellow)

i remember meeting her again on earth, and being really happy about it

[elliotly]

tag

tag! tagged by @lowercase-aesthetic thank you! answer the questions and tag people

THE LAST: 
1. Drink: apple cider 
2. Phone call: my mom 
3. Text message:

- sent: Wait i thought u were going away from Aug. 6th to 16

- received: If it’s July then sure!! 
4. Song you listened to: Purple People by Stop Light Observations 
5. Time you cried: yesterday I think? 
6. Dated someone twice: never 
7. Kissed someone and regretted it: never 
8. Been cheated on: never 
9. Lost someone special: Uhhh like two years ago I think 
10. Been depressed: Hmm maybe a year and a half? 
11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: never

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: black, rose gold, dark blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 
15. Made new friends: yes 
16. Fallen out of love: no 
17. Laughed until you cried: I doubt it 
18. Found out someone was talking about you: yes 
19. Met someone who changed you: yes 
20. Found out who your friends were: yes 
21. Kissed someone on your fb list: I don’t have Facebook ??

GENERAL: 
22. How many of your fb friends do you know irl: I don’t fucking have Facebook. as for Tumblr mutuals, I think 3? 
23. Do you have any pets: yes 
24. Do you want to change your name: sure 
25. What did you do for your last birthday: nothing (I’d just come back from a school trip so I was being jetlagged I guess?)

26. What time did you wake up: 6:51 am

27: What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 
28. Name something you can’t wait for: traveling to meet up with my mom for a cool vacation 
29. When was the last time you saw your mom: four days ago 
30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wish I were even more productive. And taller 
31. What are you listening to rn: nothing

32. Have you talked to a person named Tom: yes 
33. Something that is getting on your nerves: currently? uh not knowing enough about myself. also, less vaguely, the fact that I’m wasting my eyes/time binge watching hxh 
34. Most viewed website: um? google I guess 
35. Mole/s: uh a couple on my jawline I think? And like a one on my wrist and a few on my ankle 
36. Mark/s: freckles, a scar on my wrist from cutting myself with my pinky nail by accident while I was flapping my hands for some reason lmao, random ones on my arms and legs from tripping all the time. I have some large ones on my legs. (my skin heals weird so I have a lot of scars.) also a circular birthmark on my side, as a kid I liked to think I was an animal that was shot in my last life 
37. Childhood dream: writer, paleontologist 
38. Hair colour: dark brown/black 
39. Long or short hair: short 
40. Do you have a crush on someone: Hahah no 
41. What do you like about yourself: physically? I like my freckles and clear skin and most of my face 
42. Piercings: none 
43. Bloodtype: uh B something? Is that a thing? 
44. Nickname: none 
45. Relationship status: none 
46. Zodiac: Aries 
47. Pronouns: Any, I not-so-secretly do have a preference but I’m used to it all so as of yet idc 
48. Favourite TV show: um this is really hard. probably Steven Universe 
49. Tattoos: none 
50. Right or left hand: right 
51. Surgery: i had wisdom tooth surgery last year? 
52. Piercing: as I said before, none 
53. Sport: Haha none 
55. Vacation: ? like where I would want to go? somewhere with little light pollution so I can photograph the Milky Way 
56. Pair of trainers: I have these blue grey shoes I guess for P.E.

MORE GENERAL: 
57. Eating: chicken 
58. Drinking: apple cider 
59. I’m about to: go downstairs to work on the Laverna puppet for OWAC 
61. Waiting for: July 13th 
62. Want: to stop stressing about little things 
63. Get married: Uh idk what this is asking. If you mean if I want to get married then sure why not 
64. Career: something to do with filmmaking

WHICH IS BETTER ? 
65. Hugs or kisses: hugs 
66. Lips or eyes: eyes 
67. Shorter or taller: taller 
68. Older or younger: older 
70. Nice arms or nice stomach: I’ve been answering all of these in regards to myself btw. idk uh arms I guess? 
71. Sensitive or loud: ok I’m going to answer this one as what I like in people bc idk for myself, so sensitive 
72. Hook-up or relationship: idk relationship? idk though. if relationships in general, not just romantic, then def relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: again, idk for myself. As for other people, I’d say hesitant because if I ever do something rash I need to be kept in check bc I have little to no self control

HAVE YOU EVER: 
74. Kissed a stranger: no 
75. Drank hard liquor: no 
76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yes 
77. Turned someone down: yes 
78. Sex on the fist date: no 
79. Broken someones heart: idk no i think 
80. Had your heart broken: no 
81. Been arrested: no 
82. Cried when someone died: yes 
83. Fallen for a friend: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 
84. Yourself: yes 
85. Miracles: yes 
86. Love at first sight: yes 
87. Santa Claus: no 
88. Kiss on the first date: yes 
89. Angels: ehh idk I’ve never given that much thought

OTHER: 
90. Current best friends name: can’t pick one sorry 
91. Eye colour: mines dark brown 
92. Favourite movie: fantastic mr. fox

I tag @infestedbanana @t-rex-tinyarms @slightlyraspberry @miscellaneousphoenix @hellofanpeoples

[blackmirrorwrites]

rules: answer all the questions and tag 20 other blogs [ tagged at the end of the post ]

tagged by: @fmlforeverwrites

LAST:

1. DRINK: chocolate milk 2. PHONE CALL: i think to wish my grandfather happy birthday?? like... weeks ago?? 3. TEXT MESSAGE: my brother not fucking want to be mean and tell this girl he doesn’t want to see her anymore and not knwing what to do like... bro. she was awful. stop. 4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: End of the Summer by Emblem3 5. TIME YOU CRIED: therapy yesterday 6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: we didn’t “date” per say but that’s because he was a fuckboy and i should have known. but sophmore and junior year. #rygret 7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: st patricks day was the last time i kissed someone, questionable about the regret 8. BEEN CHEATED ON: cant cheat on what u dont have 9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: this is just v vague so idk... death wise? few years 10. BEEN DEPRESSED: bits of this morning, yesterday, day before... 11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: sometime in vermont

3 FAVORITE COLORS

12. army green 13. rose gold pink, idk how else to describe? 14. black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: Yes (question is if i kept them?) 16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: lol 17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: maybe? 18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: think so 19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: shoutout to the bosses 20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: for the most part 21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: not this year

GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: 99% 23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: two schnoodles 24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: i did for awhile, thought erin fit me better until i started to go by tori (irl) 25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: got way too fucking drunk, lots of tequila, rode a mechanical bull, lost my jacket, ran away from my friends who had to lure my drunk ass back with pizza, passed out before like 10 26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: 10 (was on phone for like an hour+), napped again and up at 12 27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: being salty in the bachelorette twitter world #teampeter 28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: when i can go back to panera 29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: 5 min ago 31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: people cutting our neighbors lawn 32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: my uncle 33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: my dad with school shit 34. MOST VISITED WEBSITE: tumblr 35. HAIR COLOR: dirty blonde 36. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: prefer long but rn mine is ‘short’ at shoulder length(ish) 37. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: yes and no. old feelings die hard but not an active thing at this point 38. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: i am a good admin fuck the haters 39. PIERCINGS: ears 40. BLOOD TYPE: fuck if i know 41. NICKNAME: vic, biv, bic, doodle, tori, queen lugnut 42. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: lol 43. ZODIAC: scorpio 44. PRONOUNS: she/her 45. FAVOURITE TV SHOW: black mirror 46. TATTOOS: nope, would only do white ink if i did 47. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: depends on what it is, right for the most part but sports i’m a lefty 48. SURGERY: 32 stitches up in my lip/chin because my brother pushed me off the couch and onto the glass coffee table when i was like 3 50. SPORT: gymnastics when i was younger, skiing, and golf 51. VACATION: take me to fucking hawaii, would go back to alaska and belfast 52. PAIR OF TRAINERS: these sketchers shoe i have are cool

MORE GENERAL

53. EATING: had a peanut butter sandwich 54. DRINKING: there’s water next to me but its old? 55. I’M ABOUT TO: go to the movies 56. WAITING FOR: it to be time to go to the movies 57. WANT: to go to the movies (and panera mac and cheese, can i eat it everyday?) 58. GET MARRIED: lol looking like i’m gonna be the drunk single aunt 4 life 59. CAREER: writing ideally, going for hotel management

WHICH IS BETTER

60. HUGS OR KISSES: depends? 61. LIPS OR EYES: eyes 62. SHORTER OR TALLER: taller 63. OLDER OR YOUNGER: older 64. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: stomach? 65. HOOKUP OR RELATIONSHIP: depends on where i’m at? 66. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: drunk me vs. sober me

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. KISSED A STRANGER: aw yus 68. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: aw yus 69. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: i have no idea where my glasses r rn 70. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: it was great 71. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: yup. the one and only date. #howyadoingJoe? 72. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: i made a german cry 73. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: partially? superficial if anything 74. BEEN ARRESTED: not yet 75. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yes 76. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: ....don’t @ me.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. YOURSELF: lol depends 78. MIRACLES: idk if i’d call it that 79. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: no? 80. SANTA CLAUS: shoutout to my mom telling me in toys r us 81. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: yea 82. ANGELS: ghosts

OTHER:

84. EYE COLOR: hazel 85. FAVORITE MOVIE: depends on what i’m in the mood for but generally love The Prestige

tagging: lol nah